Adrift

The last couple days - I’ve been thinking about life. Missing Europe. Wondering about what’s to come. Wanting to get my butt moving in a direction I can see, feel, etc. These thoughts are common after a mission trip. You start thinking, ‘where the HECK is my life going?’ and 'what can I do to change it?' It’s a time of praying, God, what do you want from me? Seeking.

At the moment I feel adrift. Adrift in a flurry of activities - where I can see God working and moving and tangibly alive - and at the same time I’m questioning every part of my life, such as my real reason for doing things, my motives, the heart and passion behind what I call faith.

I want to make every second we had over in Europe count. I want to write. I journaled while we were over there, but now that I'm back, it's hard to focus. To grab a hold of those thoughts and tie down something concrete.

So the problem is…I just don’t know what to write yet. 

Stand for You

There’s this song by Johnny Diaz that I just heard on the radio. Totally love it and have to share.

So long politics it’s time to start being me
Take the chains off my lips it’s time to set my tongue free
Some might just turn their heads but some will raise a fist
And You told me to stand so I won’t back down from this
They say there are no absolutes but are they absolutely sure

In a world that tries to water You down
Where beliefs cannot be spoken too loud
I’ll stand for truth
Where they claim Your way just isn’t wide enough
And they do their best just to cover You up
I’ll stand for You

Hello reality it’s time we embrace honesty
Teach me to speak with truth and love and humility
You made a promise that You’re coming back to earth
So how selfish am I if I don’t go tell the world
They say just be sincere but could they all just be sincerely wrong

They might remove Your name from money
But you own it all the same
They kicked You out of school that’s funny
Cause how could You go away
In a land that’s built upon Your Word
It’s amazing You’ve been banned
To think that we control You is absurd
So for truth I’m here to stand

THANK YOU to Johnny for standing up with this song. This is such a needed reminder to keep going strong! PERSEVERE. Romans 15. Hold steady. Christ IS coming back, and we need to let everyone know about it. Everyone has different ways of doing that, too…some will build relationships and live by example while others have the tenacity to just say what is. And I admire that. It’s something I need to work on.

Do you have a song that is speaking into your life right now?
I love how songs can speak exactly where we need them to...it's like God's tuning our radio for us :-)...hmmm...now that's a thought! :)

With wild abandon

Wanted to share something I wrote a month ago...a moment of inspiration...wow I needed to read this again!

Seek God with your whole heart. Love Him with wild abandon. Follow Him without asking questions...just go. Why? Because He asked you to. Because His plan is bigger than yours. It's better than you can imagine. Is it going to be easy? Probably not. Should that stop you? Not at all, because if you know His true character, you know that God loves you with wild abandon. You know that He won't ever leave you or forsake you. You know that He'll take care of you. He'll sweep you off your feet. He'll drown you in His passionate love for you! When you follow Him, no matter how hard those first steps are, or how much the middle drags on, or the end will never seem to be in sight...He's with you every step of the way. Whispering to you. Walking with you. Waiting for you to seek Him more. Trust Him more. Pray more for this world and His people who desperately need Him. And you know what He wants more than anything? You to say yes. "Yes, God, I'll go." If you ask me to go, I'll follow. I'll actually, physically, get off my butt and go wherever you want me to. Because I know you'll equip me. I know you'll take care of me. I know you love me with wild abandon. I know you have incredible plans for me. You treasure me. You want to use me to further your kingdom. To shine your love to ALL nations, ALL people, so that no one can say they haven't heard of you and heard of your love and your goodness and your grace and your Son Jesus!

God, help me to be all You have created me to be!